things left unsaid

i could've loved you but instead i tried to
save you and you
didn't want to be saved you wanted to
fill the void she left

i still think of you in the quiet of 3 AM
when i could always count on you to be awake and
in hazy gray days when your arms were my home

i hope you can forgive me for trying
to make you stay but
for the first time after him
i felt like i could be happy again

i wish time had been on our side
if i had another chance
i wouldn't try to change you

for future reference

don't fall in love with your version of him
because he won't just wake up and become that person
he'll hurt you and let you down before you realize

you were making plans with someone who doesn't even exist