the things people tell me

"you deserve better"
but you don't want better
you want
him.

yet wanting is not
having and
better means loneliness.

try to confront reality
and neither of us can
say the words -- "it's over"
when we know it isn't
yet it has to be.

"the right choice is not always the easy one"
but we could be so simple
seamlessly falling together
heartbeats in rhythm.

yet we don't --
we fight and
we're too different
unclear expectations.

unwilling to admit that maybe
he can't be the right person for me
no matter how much
I wish he was.

"maybe you just need space to figure out what you both want"
but space means time
and time means moving on and
moving on means forgetting.

today I am here but tomorrow
I will start to fade until I
am completely obliterated from all memory.

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the things people tell me to take away
the pain of choosing --
to say goodbye
to close a door that is not ready to close but
probably should
to move on.